Walk Away..........

I watch you walk away from me
And the tears start to fall
I ask myself a million times
How did we lose it all???
For the first time I had no words
that to you I could say
I cling to old memories
And I watch you walk away
I just don't want to let you go
But inside I know I must
My heart's whimpering with pain
But it's my mind I trust
There's confusion around me
There's numbness in my heart
But looking at you walk away
My world just fell apart
If only I could handle it
And bear to just say
I'd use my breath and say the words

Don't Walk Away!!!

I Want To

I want to write about how you make me feel

How every time I see your face I know that you’re real

I can’t describe the feeling you always raise in me

I can’t describe this wash of happiness that you seem to bring

But I want to write about it, I want to write about you

I want to write about that day we shared

How every time you would laugh it would linger in the air

I can’t describe the loving look in your eyes

I can’t describe the reason why you won’t say, “Goodbye”.

But I want to write about it, I want to write about you

I want to write about all our memories, all our stories, and adventures

How we conquered them together

But I can’t describe the paths we took

I can’t describe the sense of security I felt in that one look

But I want to; I want to write about you

I want to write about us

How everything felt was true love not lust

But I can’t describe anything without you

I can’t describe all our hopes and dreams

How everything that was so perfect left in a fleet of screams

I want to write

But I can’t explain how our plans got so disarrayed

How god just had to take you away

I can’t describe this sudden feeling I have to be by your side

How even through death I have to hide all that I feel inside

I want to write, but I forget how to describe what is meant

I want to write about you but I can’t

I can’t describe the feeling of lost, the feeling of what it all cost

Or of the silent screams, the lovely dreams with just you and me

But I want to-

Our Acquaintance Wasn't Long

I am so glad that I met you
Although our acquaintance wasn't long
You have made a big impact in my life
And it is thanks to you
Why I remain strong

Your friendship means the world to me
Believe me, it truly does
And I just wanted you to know that
From me you will always find love

Now we are going our separate ways
Maybe never to meet again
As long as our friendship holds true
Our connection will forever stand

We may not have been best friends
But that is just a title
For the kind of friendship we do share
Is more active than it is idle

I am going to miss you
I know we said we would keep in touch
But that is what everyone always says
But it never seems to mean much

So this is why I am telling you now
How much you truly mean to me
Because anything could happen in the future
Tomorrow is something I may never see

Yes I am going to miss you
And I wish you the very best
And please always try to remember
That you are truly blessed!

Friend's Apart

Whenever I think of the times we've shared together,
I'm reminded of the pains and heartaches we've had to weather.
It seems no matter what's going on,
To find comfort we don't have to wait too long.
What then do we do when times get harder, as we continue to grow older?
Let me just say this to you,
Our friendship is very dear and special, too.
So please, no matter what happens between us,
Don’t let our friendship turn to dust.
Or I will without a doubt fall apart,
With the pieces of my broken heart. Whenever I think of the times we've shared together,
I'm reminded of the pains and heartaches we've had to weather.
It seems no matter what's going on,
To find comfort we don't have to wait too long.
What then do we do when times get harder, as we continue to grow older?
Let me just say this to you,
Our friendship is very dear and special, too.
So please, no matter what happens between us,
Don’t let our friendship turn to dust.
Or I will without a doubt fall apart,
With the pieces of my broken heart.

Never say "I Quit"

How easy it gets for an unsaid good-bye

Some would think twice before they try

Leaving behind, the world they had hardly seen;

Living a partial life without forthcoming treasures to redeem

A grim escape, decides a naïve mind of a teen

Every person has its own set of worries to handle

A human is known to overcome all obstacles that come

Love, exams, money, pain... are these who make them numb?

Treasure is not easily found, never seen above the ground

Failure brings no joy; welcome it as an enemy on a battleground

Can’t we try harder to turn our fate?

You decide not only for you, but, your families and mates

A thought of them over your decision can win the debate.

Make that stop button to your life inaccessible

It only makes you turn away and act irresponsible

All you have to do, is give it just another try

Leave no stone unturned, explore your hidden spy

Arrest success; produce your hard earned alibis

It is you who decides how problems for you end

Try everything apart from the forbidden route of dead end!!

Awaiting Little You my Angel......

Coming into my world, is what I long await

Nine months have passed so slowly, giving you and me time to relate.

Your arrival will give wings to us, changing couple to sweet family, Bonding us all in our lifetimes as the eight of us become ninth.

I have read to you lines of poetry to develop your love of verse,

I have sung to you songs and hymns I love, to quench your spiritual thirst.

I have spoken to you of family and the world they mean to me,

All of whom will surround you soon, this beautiful new baby to see.

I have spoken to you of our home and the warmth and love you will bring,

may you always know your importance here and how your laughter will make my heart sing.

I have spoken to you of God, the joy and hope He gives to my heart, praying that you, too, will discover the richness His love imparts.

Little baby you just can't imagine wondrous blessings as your life begins, the greatest blessings that will be bestowed upon you, are the blessings of family and friends.

(This Poem was written(17th July,2010) in awating of my Sis (who is 9th Pearl of ma Big Family), whn she was abt to born ,but due to Lazness....i wrote after a Week ahead..923rd July2010),after she had Born.)

Promise to stay in Touch

I couldn't find the right words
Nothing seemed to rhyme
To write something for you all
I think it will take time

Because when you have friends
That are very hard to find
There's so much to say
Because you make everything alright

So I will tell you right now
exactly what I need to say
To show you how much I appreciate
You being there everyday

You're worth more than anyone
even a million pounds
Because you always know what to say
When I am feeling down

You make me smile big smiles
And my days so very bright
And when I lose my way
You find me in the night

I sometimes wish I could explain
How much you mean to me
But its just not possible
To list a billion things

So I just wanted to say
I love you so so much
And I hope you never leave me
Promise to stay in touch

First Rain....

Rain drops falling in my head,

and never knowing when it will end.

Should I run for cover,

or let another rain drop fall in my head again?

I would love to dance in the rain,

and knowing somehow it’ll help erase the pain.

Sometimes when I’m all alone,

and I see rain drops are falling outside again.

There’s happiness that I feel [...]

A Unforgetable Gift:

Once whn I was in school

My Mam askd… ..a qstn?

Whc is d preciouable Gift u got from Parents?

I wonder wht would b the answer in my 4^th age

I think but I was vain

Dhen I askd my Mom ….

Mom wht s the answer …..she replied wth

sMiling …and said

she took my hands in her hands and

and Kept near her …..i was wonder y…??

she said u r precious gift is being bring up by me,

u wll get it soon

I was so excited that I askd her wth my stampd Leg

She shouted 4r first time …..

She told dnt beat me….ur Gift wll

Dhn she tld me 2 wait 4r sum days ….

I was so excited that I use to stare evry day at her…

Finally God &my Mom gave me d gift 4r my 5^th bdy

Bt bfr 9 days bfr me…dat was none oder my Sis….

I askd y so early to God…

God Replied “Child its CHITRAgUPTAN Mistakn “

He done d mistkn whl calcutng d Days….”

Friends For Never

Friends forever, you promised.

Never to part, you said.

But now we’ve fought,

Words were thrown between us…

And now I’m lying here crying on my bed.

Part of me feels,

That it’ll never be the same…

Sure we’ve fought before,

But they were always fixed,

And we both took responsibility to the problem,

But in this one fight,

You said there was only one person to blame…

Me.

I’ve always been there for you.

And I know I always will,

Because I cared about you then,

And I care about you still.

Friends forever,

Was what we said we’d always be,

But look whats happened today,

We’ve fought and now you are gone…

So what I really need you to see,

Is what you made it feel like,

All the tears I’ve cried,

The hurt I’ve felt all through the night,

You said friends forever,

But really,

It was friends for never.

A Promise Is A Promise

You promised you’d always trust in me,

I believed that'd always be true.

But behind that face of veracity,

You hid a different you.

Your eyes fill deep with confusion.

Your tongue breathes nothing but lies.

Your lips speak words of nothingness,

When you stare into my eyes.

Single drops of heartbreak fall,

As my fears escape your lips.

Dreams fall without warning,

And it’s just too late to fix.

Truth lies hiding behind our doors,

Veiled over by your existence.

I try breaking this sturdy door,

But am barred by another resistance.

You promised you’d always trust in me,

And I believe that'd always be true,

So you now deserve to see my broken dreams,

Cracked, on the floor, around you.

TrustFul Friend &Friendship....

there was this one friend I could always trust
this one friend was always with us
he saved me in more ways than one
he made me smile when everything was wrong
then one day I screwed it all up
that day at the derby I think he heard me
I spoke from my heart as I was falling apart
as I pressed send I should have known it would end
I should have hit delete; then I wouldn't weep
I cried all the way home; I felt all alone
I want to tell him now
he's the only one my dad would allow
to talk to me at midnight
to see me in the daylight
does he realize
that in my eyes
there are tears from the many fears
of losing him forever?

If I said I was sorry would this friend of mine let me know in some way that he forgives me? If not I completely understand I screwed up the one and only friendship that I NEVER wanted to lose.

I'm Sorry!

What sister is mean??

What can you say about a sister who

Has everything? Laughter, life, love

Smiles, tears, enthusiasm, spark, knowledge,

Spunk and to top it all off, Beauty.

A sister isn’t just a sibling!

She is a whole world.

The things she touches are amazing. The love

She shares is beautiful.

And her encouragement is spectacular.

To have a sister doesn’t make you special,

To know your sister, makes you invincible.

The bond sisters’ share is enlightening.

The love they give to each other is magnificent.

To look into your sisters eyes and know

What she is thinking, isn’t a miracle, it’s natural

To see her smile warms your heart.To hear her talk

Sooths your soul.

To feel her heartbeat in you, is special.

They say sisters are from cradle to grave,

But I believe that it is the in between that counts.
When she takes the rap for something you did,
She doesn’t need a thanks, she does it because she cares.

When she sits up till 3:00 AM with you,

Even if she has to get up at 7:00 AM,

She doesn’t feel exhausted, she feels cleansed

When you two cry together till your eyes are all puffy,

She isn’t just sad she believes that it cures the heart.

When she picks out your first prom dress, or brings you

Your first flowers, and when she buys you a card because

You had a bad day she is glad that she could help.

A sister’s word of encouragement or warning

Is always taken to heart. When she explains

How to handle a boy at school, or how to

Talk to mom, she’s touched that you came to her.

When she can sympathize with you

Because she’s been there, it’s comforting.

When she can share your dreams with you,

It’s encouraging. When she beats you up Because you’re a brat, it’s learning.

Sisters can do anything. Together they

Will conquer the world. But when it’s

All said and done, she will hold you hand

Because she’s proud to be your sister.

So, if you are blessed to have a sister through blood,

Be thankful. And if you’re all alone,

grab the first precious girl In your life, and make her your sister.

Sisters are everything you need. And a whole lot more.

Full Moon

Watching the FullMoon
shining brightly up in the dark skyi can’t resist drawing a parallel to my life;
one complete circle it has come,

what started as a small thing hasnow been completed and finishedwith the next stage already in motion;
just like a full moon,

my life achieved its highest peak andlike

all good things, it has come to an end,

and slowly fades away into oblivion;
bit by bit,

it starts fading awaybit by bit,

slowly and steadilyleavinga long lasting impression behind

it is slowly moved out of context;
life goes on,up and down,

waning and waxinglike a moon;
just like the craters on the moon,

all events etched deep into our memories

never fading away and reminding us of thegood and the bad days of life;

Who is Daughter???

She’s a joy she’s an angel’ well that’s what she thinks
She clings on to your heart like a plug to a sink
She drives you all crazy with make believe games
She’ll have you believe that fairies fly planes

She often comes in with imaginary friends
And can draw on their dads with permanent pens
She has pretty parties with dolls as her mates
But then runs straight out and she swings on the gate

She listens to stories of love and romance
Then shoves a live frog in her best friends pants
At night when asleep the angels go quiet
I often do think that she could start a riot

She looks like a princess all said and done
And Uses mums lipstick to draw a big sun
All over the walls and down the settee
Her face is alive and she giggles with glee

Its then that you have to be strong and quite firm
For if you stand back she will never quite learn
And learn things she does most every day
She learns how to get thing her very own way

She came into your life and captured your heart
And then from that time you won’t stay apart
You may keep your son till he finds a good wife
But your daughters your daughter for all of her life


Decidated to My APPa.....(Indria to Nehru)

The Blessings Of A Big Family

The blessings of a big family
are only seen by a few
A few of the chosen ones
that God has given this blessing too

The blessings are so numerous
it's hard to even start
to number or to name them but
they all hold a place in the heart

The heart of every person in a
big family is unique
it's uniqueness makes us special
and should not be critiqued

The memories that are made
are more precious than gold
from babies to weddings
from young and to old

From grandparents to grandchildren
and everyone in between
the many special relationships that are built
and could have never been foreseen

Thank you God
for my big family I will treasure
through the good times and bad
the memories could not be measured

Thank you God
for birthdays, simple get-togethers and even the tears
for I pray that these blessings
last many, many more years

To have a big family
can be a lot of work, not just play
but life is too short
so I THANK GOD FOR MY BIG FAMILY TODAY!


this Poem is Dedicated to My Big Family MyGrandPa,Lovely Chittappu's &Chitti's ,& My Sister's &Bro's .........All.......16 members of my BigFamily (include me also:P )

Seeking the Hand

LAst Night !!i was thinking what it would had been!!
then i thought it would have been my misconception!!
But a Last it was not misconception and Misunderstanding!!!
Its Real &Reality!! Every Girl have to Face who doesnt have Brothers!!
There May b Many Telling that iam ur Brother i will be ur Brother Life Long [:O]
But i think the answer is No!!
Actually what is word brother means?
i searched thinked&thought Finally i Got my answer!!
when i slept in my Mom's Lap.........
When she Kept her hand in my Head......Automatically my Eyes get to Pour Tears!!
i ask her "Mom What Does Brother means?"
She Replied"its a boy whom had been born from same wormb with a girl"
i asked my Dad he replied "He said its a Responsible given by Your parents to us by birth......
Nobody replied what my heart wants.....it was Wondering For a Perfect answer!!
i askd my Small sis she said "its a Beautiful Brother who allways Give me choloclates...
LAst my Heart Searched"its a Beautiful Angel Sent by God,
Sowed by God in Same Wormb,who Proctec us by Little Charming Thoughts!!
The Hand that beat on head when u do Fun,
The Hand that Guide u when You r in Need,
The Hand that brings u small small precious Gifts,
The Hand that beat when ur Wrong,
The Kiss u Get while u Leaving ur Home after Marriage
i Wish i Would have that Hand on Me.........
But my Wish Was unfulFill By God!!
I WIsh i would have a Brother in next birth!!
But Lastly i Dont know why God i so Cruel to me !!
But Sometimes Lucky to God that i have 3 SIsters with me.......whom itself he doesnt have